Okay, so miscarriage #5 is over. I go in for another blood draw tomorrow to make sure that my hormone levels are back down to zero, and then onto birth control. It’s time for a break. I’ve become so jaded with the whole thing, that I wasn’t even really that upset this time. The reality of the matter is that I was upset I wasn’t upset. So, in the nature of things, it’s time to take a step back away from the obsession and breath for a bit.
I have some new goals, mostly related to fitness, which not only will help me to feel better, but will potentially help with the fertility stuff. I used to be in fantastic shape, and was even on the skinny side, then life happened, and that whole maturing woman thing happened, and I gained weight. So, putting it out there for all to see, I’m making a commitment to myself to get active gain, and lose some weight. I’d love to start running again, though it’s been a while and I’m not positive that my knee can handle it (1100 pounds of horse falling on it might have had something to do with that 😛 ). In the meantime, I’ll start working on my cardio, and making exercise fun again, and then try to start getting up before it gets hot and take the dog out for a walk and/or light jog in the morning.
In The Beginning Hemlock’s Measurements! (cause we all want to know this!):
Height: 5′ 3″
Weight: 130-134 depending on the scale
Waist to Hip Ratio: 0.9
Ideal Weight: 120
Ideal Waist to Hip Ratio: 0.8
My goal is to check in at least once a week on here for the exercise/fitness end of things. This’ll be an interesting experience, as I’ve never had to actually try to get in shape. I’ve always been VERY active, and had a naturally fast metabolism, so I don’t know what happened aside from the PCOS, which I know has a lot to do with it. Due to that, it’s going to be an uphill battle because I’m not fighting just overeating or lack of activity; but I’m literally fighting my body.
Well, here we go!