All posts for the month August, 2010

You’re Joking… Right?

Published August 17, 2010 by Hemlock

There’s roughly a week and half before Fall Semester starts for college and I’ve been waiting, maybe not patiently but still waiting, for my Financial Aid to fund. I’m working off of loans right now because education is expensive. This semester, my tuition is going to run me $1056 and my books are going to run about $500. Yeah, I know this isn’t as bad as a lot of schools, but for me, this is prohibitively expensive.

I sent an email to our Financial Aid office a few days ago wanting to know when to expect my money as I did everything they wanted to… including getting a 3.86 GPA across the summer (that’s hard to do with 15+ hours of homework a day for 5.5 weeks).

So, anyways, here I am, minding my own business and expecting to have my money soon when; BOOM!! Out of the blue, I get an email stating that they’ve denied me my financial aid! You’re fucking kidding me, right? As I look through this email, I find that the only thing keeping me from getting my funding is the fact that I’ve hit my 90 credit limit.

Ooookay, so I begin to wonder where they get the 90 credits from. A call to the Financial Aid office reveals that they counted all of the classes I’ve withdrawn from – even the ones they didn’t pay for. Now, most of those classes were dropped due to health reasons, like my miscarriages and all the baggage that goes along with it. I ask this woman what I can do, and her response is that I can file an appeal. However, first I need to set up a payment plan and make my first payment. They no longer defer payment, but instead break the total tuition up into three payments. For me, this means roughly $352 each for August, September, and October. The problem with this scenario is that I’m getting financial aid for a reason, people! If I could afford my classes you can bet your ass I wouldn’t be getting any loans.

I ask her when this first payment is due, and replies that it needs to be in by Friday morning. That’s right, THIS Friday. On top of that, I’ll need to cover all my books as well. I was utterly dumbfounded. They tell me ONE WEEK before school starts (and THREE DAYS before tuition is due), that I need to pull nearly $900 out of my ass.

You’re fucking kidding.

Get this, though. If they approve my appeal, they’ll reimburse me!

What I don’t get is that they told me I’m approved, and for months we’ve been expecting that school was covered. Why do they do this so close to my deadlines and now, if the appeal is denied, we have to come up with over $1500 for school for me PLUS moving money.

I hate this school, I hate our government. They want us all to get educations, but no one can afford it.

Fucking brilliant.


My Writer’s Block Even Extends To Post Titles…

Published August 15, 2010 by Hemlock

I hate it when you want to write, but you really just can’t come up with anything. You know what I’m talking about: Writer’s Block. It has been my arch-nemesis for the last several weeks. I try, and try to get motivated to write something but I just can’t simply get there. I’ve read numerous articles, and even other blogs, that have triggered some little inkling of something but nothing that was really, what I could consider, inspiring.

I’ve read a couple of books this last week, and I have to say that they were never written, and do not exist. That’s right, you heard me! These non-existant books are called Dragonheart and Dragongirl. They’re both written by Todd McCaffery, Anne McCaffrey’s son. They were the two most horribly written books I have ever encountered. Dragongirl was so bad that I couldn’t even finish it. I seriously threw it to the ground in disgust.

I can’t say much as I’m sure there are those who havn’t read either yet, and will have a desire to do so, but be forewarned. He has changed the dynamic between Rider and Dragon, added in items and foodstuffs that are never mentioned in the books originally penned by Anne McCaffrey, and I swear to God that there are no more adults on Pern.

He is more wordy than Tad Williams, which is almost impossible, but he has somehow managed it. His storyline is so disjointed that you find yourself confused the entire time trying to figure out what he’s talking about, and he’s continually giving the reader information that is in no way necessary to the story. He gives too much information, and in the end, loses his reader’s attention.

I hate that they list him as a Best Selling Author. It’s not him that’s the best seller; it’s not even his books. Pern is the best seller. His books are being purchased, sight unseen, simply because they are written in Dragonriders of Pern world.

The Pern novels taught me to read. They hold a special place in my heart, and always will. I’ve read the series, in its entirety, an uncountable amount of times and it pains me to see what’s happening to something that’s so dear to me. I wish that he would let the world be, and stop trying to write… at least in this world. Anne’s writing was beginning to show her age during the last several years, but she’s such a master at weaving a tale that it’s easily, and eagerly, ignored.

However, you can’t ignore what Todd is doing. I understand that he must feel passionate about this world that he grew up in, but he needs to let it be. Please, keep imaging things, but please, spare us all and don’t publish anything!

It’s A Clown Car

Published August 3, 2010 by Hemlock

I went to MSN earlier today, and was pursuing the normal headlines of disgruntled employees shooting people, natural disasters, and how to raise your children. Now, generally, I try to avoid a particular overtly productive family whenever they make the headlines, but I couldn’t stop myself from clicking when I saw this: Michelle Duggar: I would have a 20th Child.

Are… you… fucking… kidding… me…?

How is it possible that her uterus is possibly still intact? How is this not considered compulsive hoarding? Or even an addiction?

Supposedly their belief system enables them to ‘have as any children as God blesses them with’. I really just don’t understand this way of thinking. They’re not able to parent their children effectively; not with that many children.

Financially, they can cope, and their children are provided for. Emotionally, though? No, no support there. The oldest children are caring for their younger siblings. They’re being forced to grow up at an exponential rate simply because their parents can’t seem to use a condom or birth control pills.

Stealing someone’s youth and childhood should be considered a cardinal sin. It creates monsters who fill our headlines with rape, murder, and suicide.

I won’t even bring up the argument of there being so many children available for adoption because there’s always going to be children up for adoption, just like there will always be dogs and cats in the pound that need homes as well. It’s a problem that will never go away.

Either way, their behavior is not something that should be rewarded in any way. The attention and money they get from the TV show they have, and various speeches that I’m sure they do, are doing nothing other than feeding their addiction.

People herald Michelle Duggar as a ‘super mom’, but what mothering is she doing? Yes, she home schools her kids. Well, my mom did that and no one heralded her as a super mom.

This is a family clan that is headed by two sick people who should really be in therapy. People have had their children taken away from them for less than what is occurring within this family.

I just don’t get it.

It’s All In Your Head

Published August 2, 2010 by Hemlock

I have a book that I like to use for writing exercises: Take Ten for Writers. As far as I’m concerned, the author Bonnie Neubauer is brilliant. Her exercise prompts are engaging, entertaining, and really allow your imagination to take flight.

The one I did today was quite entertaining to do, as it was rather ‘out there’ and allowed me to pull from my recent X-Files exploits (… The truth is out there …)! The premise is that you are now working for an upstart supermarket tabloid. Due to a lack of funding, the only things available to you are an office chair, a desk, a pen, paper, and a wastebasket. When you ask about a computer, and how you’re to do your research, his reply is that ‘it’s all in your head’.

Well, time to get going, I guess! The rules are that you have to write for 10 minutes without stopping. First, though, you have to randomly choose a number from 1 to 10. This number, in turn, is what really narrows down your particular prompt content. For me, my head line was: “Methane From World’s Largest Cow Single-Handedly Increasing Global Warming”.

Well, then… ok?

What follows is my exact exercise, as it is written in my writing journal. I’ve included the horrid grammar and spelling, missing words, as well as my strike-throughs and such. Remember you have to stop at the 10 minute mark which means that the thought process is continual, and may or may not have an ending, and not everything will be wrapped up in a pretty bow and be ready for publishing. Remember, the following IS NOT actual news, and is all a figment of my imagination. It is fiction!

Methane From World’s Largest Cow Single-Handedly Increasing Global Warming
It has been discovered that a 2-ton steer cow has been discovered single-handedly responsible for global warming. it is common knowledge that cattle produce obscene amounts of methane gas due to their digestive system. These rumminants have been studied to determine if there is any connections to global warming or not, and were though to be innocent. This is due to the fact that they are not releasing large quantities at once. The amount of methane released from the average cow is spread out acrross the day. This allows for the planet’s natural oxygen scrubbers to clean and filter our air. However, this particular cow releases so much methane at once, at any given, that the planet simply can’t keep up.

One might ask how it took so long for this bovine to be discovered, and the answer is that it’s due to a Government conspiracy.

It turns out that the cow, and previous generations, ahve been housed at Area 51. It is the result of years of genetic tampering and manipulation. You see, the goverment has been trying to figure out the best way to feed an entire nation. Veg This is in response to various animal rights groups complaining about how many animals suffer in slaughter houses. The government’s response to this was to simply create bigger cattle, therefore, reducing the number of animals being slaughtered. In the end, on could say it was the activists who are responsible for global warming.

Again, this is all a work of fiction; and very rough fiction at that. The goal is to have fun, and enjoy yourself… nothing is perfect the first time around. You never know when a prompt may start a seed of an idea that will grow and multiply like a virus…