All posts tagged Firefly


Published January 14, 2012 by Hemlock

I think I’m doing better today.  The stress of last night has messed up my system a bit so I’m a bit queasy and having to force myself to eat (gotta love homemade ginger tea).  Other than that, I feel a bit more stable and was able to pop onto Facebook today and see my friend’s post and actually feel a bit of bittersweet happiness for her… it’s a step in the right direction.

Today, I plan on eating a couple of Double Cheeseburgers from Burger King, and continuing my therapy of Skyrim, possibly some Dark Ages of Camelot, and quite possibly watch some Firefly!  I have absolutely no plans to exercise today!

It really is interesting to see the kind of perspective you can gain by simply taking a time out and sleeping it off.  It still hurts, but it’s ok.


Dragon Age Crushes and Hermit Crabs

Published February 13, 2011 by Hemlock

Alrighty… so I’ve definitely fallen behind on my posting, but in my defense it’s been a bit of a rough week.  On Thursday, Xannatos picked up my progesterone so that I could start my drop-off run and jump start AF.  Well, that night I started spotting so we decided to hold off on the medication to see what would happen and guess what?  I had some of the worst cramps I’ve had in a while.  You know, like the kind that make your feet go out from underneath you.  The unfortunate part, is that AF lasted literally hours.  I kid you not… just a few hours, and then she was gone.  The hormonal aspects of AF are still here; at least that’s all I can figure.  I’m just generally depressed and seriously hormotional.

You know how horomotional I am?  Check this out:  We picked up the Ultimate Edition of Dragon Age: Origins (which, by the way, is turning out to be awesome) on Friday, I think, and I now have a serious crush on this guy in the game.  Yes, I know, a totally geeked out thing to do but I have a history of this (Raistlin Majere from DragonLance, Mal from Firefly, Data and Worf from TNG, Joselyn from the Kushiel Trilogy, and many more… what can I say?  I LOVE fictional characters).  I mean, how is it possible to not fall in love with this guy?  He’s just the cutest (in that “Awwwwww” sort of way), most awkward, bumbling yet capable character I’ve seen in a game.  Oh, forgot to mention that the guy is hot and his voice is even hotter!  Yeah, pathetic I know.

Back to what I was saying, though.  I’m playing the game, and the romance is blossoming between my character and his, and then it hits me.  This isn’t going to end well. Nope… no sirrreee… this isn’t going to end well.  Now, this is where the ‘meta’ thinking gets me into trouble.  I’m already feeling incredibly depressed, and now I can’t stop my brain from coming up with every bad ending that could possibly happen in this game and it makes me not so happy.  Like, really, really not happy.  I know he’s just a fictional character but I don’t want to lose him, or have him die! I got so upset that I just wanted to cry, and this made me feel even more horrible because I wanted to cry over a fictional character!  If you really think about it, though, it just shows what an awesome job the developers did with his character.  They’ve done such a great job at character development that this guy has essentially become real!  The sex scene is really quite well done… very touching and romantic.  Honestly, it is!

I got my ChocoBuddy!  Yay!  MommyOdd has done such a wonderful job, and I think this idea is absolutly brilliant!  I really do!  So, here’s a shout-out to my ChocoBuddy over at the Bakery! It’s nice to know that there’s someone close (even if she is in the state next door). Sometimes it seems like we’re all just floating around in the blogsphere, and somehow this makes it all more real.

OH! Xannatos and I discovered Hermit Crabs on Saturday night. Seriously, these little guys are awesome! We were out looking for a new cage for two of our birds, and for whatever reason Xannatos wandered off (that’s usually my job) and as he’s walking by this nifty little terrarium setup he sees something fall out of the corner of his eye. Well, it turns out that it was a Hermit Crab. These little guys apparently love to climb. We’re thinking about getting some, but Xannatos is on the fence post about adding more animals to the Zoo. I, of course, am all for it. If I had any say in the matter, we’d have one of every animal on the planet. Either way, whether we get them now or not, I’m not concerned. They’ll probably end up in the house eventually, if not immediately! They’re just too cool.

I have nothing to prove

Published January 25, 2011 by Hemlock

When Xannatos and I got married it was a small civil ceremony.  Nothing fancy, just family and a friend crammed into an office that was entirely too small for everyone, and though I’m sure his mother was livid, my family accepted it as it wasn’t anything usual for my side of the family.  My mother had been married in a quickie-chapel in Reno when she married step-dad number 2, and Nana got married in a civil union downtown in Santa Cruz… it’s just the way things are done in my family.

Like my Nana, though, Xannatos and I had been committed to each other and our relationship long before any ceremony was performed.  We didn’t need the license to know we were together, or to even keep us together, but unfortunately at the time Nevada didn’t recognize domestic partnerships so we were forced to get married in order for me to get health coverage.

Family Pic @ 'Reception'

Hemlock, Xannatos, his step-brother, his step-mother, and his Dad

Both Xannatos and myself are not big proponents of Traditional Marriage as it’s very religious based, and if you need the license in order to confirm to yourself that you’re in a committed relationship then you have no business being together.  That’s just us, though.

I remember at one point I was talking to my mother about the type of ceremony I’d like to have, she got all offended.  I’ve always been a fan of Pagan and Hand-fasting ceremonies.  They focus more on the respect, bond, and love you have for each other vs. obeying one or the other or proving your union to God and the people around you.

You see, my mother is Christian and very much feels that a Wedding should be fairly traditional and have some mention of God.  Myself, though I was raised around Christianity, but I was also raised around MormonismJudaism, BaptistCatholicism, and Atheism.   In addition to that, one the teachers that I have the most respect for was a follower of Islam (you heard me right… and he was one of the whitest, skinniest, most intelligent men I’ve ever known).  So I come from a pretty eclectic system of beliefs and there’s nothing wrong with that.

One day, I’d love to be barefoot in the middle of an old Redwood Forrest surrounded by the sound and scent of Nature holding Xannatos’ hand.  I just want something between me, my partnert, and the Verse.

My Laminated List

Published January 18, 2011 by Hemlock

It’s 3:10am and I can’t sleep. Xannatos is busy snoring away in the other room, and after laying in bed for several hours I finally gave up. So, I figured why not come write a post, but what to write about? I really had no idea, so I checked my email first and found some comments to my last post. One of them came from slcurwin over at Holy Crap! You Can’t Talk About Miscarriage. She made a mention about how King Leonidas is her current hunk of choice, and that got me to thinking about men.

Personally, I have a thing for older men… much older men. Mind you, one of my choices isn’t that much older than me, but there’s a solid 12 years between us. I don’t know why this is, but there’s something about a man as he ages that just makes him more attractive. Usually, when walking down the street the guys I check out have a good 15 to 20 years on me, and they look like men. I like a man with chest hair, someone capable of growing facial hair, usually some grey coming in, and some meat on his bones! I’m not a big fan of guys who still have that boyish appearance, and with an exception or two, I prefer guys who are a little thicker, and not ripped. Dunno what it is, but that’s what does it for me.

So, without further ado here’s my List of the 4 Sexiest Men on Planet Earth!

Nathan Fillion
Age: 39
Twitter: @NathanFillion
Known For: Malcom Reynolds on Firefly & Serenity, Buck from Halo: ODST, Caleb from Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Richard Castle from Castle, Captain Hammer from Dr. Horrible’s Sing-Along-Blog
Why He’s Gorgeous: The man oozes charisma, and rumor has it he’s a very humble man. I have a thing for underdogs, nerds, and educated men. He meets all three, and then some. He’s passionate about what he does, and it comes through in his work. He also plays Halo and as a Gamer Chick, I find that rather important!

Mike Rowe
Age: 48
Known For: Host of Discovery’s Dirty Jobs
Why He’s Gorgeous: The man has the most amazing voice; no one can deny this. That said, the man is charismatic, ready to smile and make fun of himself, and seems to really take to heart life’s experiences.

Hugh Laurie
Age: 51
Known For: Gregory House from House M.D., A Bit of Fry and Laurie
Why He’s Gorgeous: He’s very candid in his interviews, and just a little strange in that Brittish sort of way. Though he’s skinnier than I prefer, he’s good and tall and has plenty of grey. I think there’s something very penetrating about his facial expressions, and I think it’s due to the fact that his life shows clearly on his face. He’s a man who’s been through, and experienced, a lot of inner turmoil but has now reached a point where he’s come to terms with life.

Patrick Stewart
Age: 70
Known For: Captain Jean-Luc Picard from Star Trek: TNG, Professor X from X-Men
Why He’s Gorgeous: The man is charming. I mean, what girl doesn’t fall for an Brittish accent? He has a bit of a twinkle in his eye, and is a remarkable theater actor. He might be substantially older, but he’s aged very well!