I’ve officially decided that being a girl is overwhelming. I’ve never been much of a girl in the traditional sense. I don’t dress girlie, I don’t wear makeup, and I don’t generally do my hair. For me, it’s about ease… I don’t like being as lave to my mirror. However, as I’m closing in on 30 I’m finding that my taste is changing and I’m desiring to embrace my femininity a bit. I never had a good example for makeup from mother as her makeup was usually applied for work (exotic dancer… more ‘normal’ than most of the girls she worked with, but it’s essentially stage makeup), and my Nana doesn’t wear makeup.
When it comes to clothing, I would have to say that I’m a bit old fashioned, and I don’t like bright colors. So, when I dress to go out it tends to be very understated. Compound that with my normal everyday clothing of jeans and a black t-shirt, I’m just a boring tomboy.
For the last two days I’ve been watching one of my favorite YouTube gurus, Michelle Phan. I’ve been following her for just over a year, and her skin care tutorials are excellent. Most of the supplies can be found in your kitchen, and are very gentle and non aggravating. Her makeup tutorials are very nice too, but the few times I’ve tried them out, it’s been a disaster. It’s not her, though, it’s me. It’s a disaster when I try to figure out what colors to use, and the techniques are hard as well. To top it off, I feel completely inadequate when I don’t understand something, or can’t do it. It drives me nuts.
I spent all of last week trying to figure out what my overall skin tone was but couldn’t. So, in turn, I was unable to figure out what my undertones were. I don’t know how important undertones are, but I know that general skin tone is important. Cool, warm… I have no idea what the hell I am.